in it

In it

deep

dirty

It is not always pretty

or like the story books

but

when it comes to you

what it always is

is

Worth it

For loving you takes work and care

But it as it should be

No heaven on earth could grant all you give 

For free

Your love and respect must be earned 

Treated as the gift it truly is

Everyday

I am thankful

Blessed

And

More Deeply in Love

not everything is poetry

some things are just rambling strings of words , and expression  - raw, unfiltered and real
what i feel is irrelevant ant this point.   what i want is as well

i have a beautiful intelligent sexy and vibrant woman who i love and fell in love with who thru the action over a long period of time grew to thk i do not love her and that has elicited real and true hate for me

     i am fighting with what i have - all i have.  i want her to see the love and admiration i hold in my heart
i want her to feel the genuine and real embrace
feel my heart beat next to hers
i want for her to know she is wanted
desired
longed for
dreamt of
oogled over
worshipped

loved

thin ice

far from shore

you hear the crack

you freeze - paralyzed

afraid to move - knowing the odds are it will make it worse

but is it worse than being far from shore alone and cold?

so what to do?

logic is self preservation, but one is a slow death 

the other is a potentially quick one - but with the slimmest of chances of survival

so

time to choose life - 

no matter how short it may be