scrapnel

it may not be metal or stone

but it tears at us where no one can see

unless they look in our eyes - deep: long

there you will see the severed appendages, the gaping wounds

caused by a more heinous shrapnel

shrapnel of  the heart

shrapnel of the spirit

these cannot come from an unknown combatant, but only from an enemy

you know - or thought you knew.

the healing is hard - how do you stitch up that which you cannot see?  remove that which you cannot feel?

you apply the medications of the heart

listen

care

hear

console

patiently, always patiently.  

For failure to do so will not cause the loss of limb

but worse - it will cause the loss of hope

short and sweet - but accurate

roses are red

violets are blue

just cuz im an asshole 

dont mean no love for you

the struggle

he struggle

what is in me and outside of me

never is the same

what i feel and show

unlike my reflection

are never the same

my words do not convey

as they are things no words can say

so i need my touch

my heart

my eyes

to do this, that all of me fails to do

sometimes the parts are more that their sum

sometimes in the isolated moment you will find what

the lifetime fails to enunciate

that i love you

need you

crave you

and in my darkest hours …

that i will cease to be me without you

and with all that i am and know

i will fight for you

til you walk away

or i pass from this world

to fight on for you in another

rules

Rules

they keep us safe,

grounded

buffered from harm.

They order our lives when all about us is chaos,

Like a railings, turnstiles, and razor-wire.

But at a cost,

penned in

corralled

isolated from the the unknown,

Like walls, fences and opaque glass

But walls have doors, fences gates,

For a reason

To break the rule when it is no longer required

When it becomes both superfluous and arcane.

Its security overruled by a higher power.

when the pleasure outweighs the pain,

and the risk more worthy than the solitude

When Love beckons...

There is no need of gates, doors or passages

For the barriers melt away in the newfound reality....

True love

It does not shield one from harm, but embraces till all harm ceases to exist.

not intended

Not Intended

Not an excuse

Not a Reason

Not an explanation

Logic knows this but it ironically pursues the illogical

And tries to make it better with what makes it worse.

So fuck it - this what is intended.

Because - does it really matter?

Listen instead of explain

Understand instead of be heard

Hear

Love

Empathize

Hold

Touch

Kiss

Be counted on by not caring if your point is heard

Because

If you are loved...

It will

man imperfect

Man Imperfect

unkempt and bumbling, weird and cranky,

He is no catch you wish to keep.

But in the eye of his one true love....

unkempt is natural

bumbling  sweet

weird is eccentric

and while cranky is still cranky, it is tolerated because

she sees the little bit of perfect within the imperfect.

In Her he sees the beauty all others see

He sees what all others covet.

But most of all he sees what others don't

he sees her beauty, he sees her heart

He sees enough to wonder why she ever chose this Man Imperfect.

But every night he thanks the first star she did.

finding your way home

finding your way home

you start out knowing where you are

who you are

who you love

who they love

why they love

then life and strife

hurls us in the surf

throws us upon the  rocks

into the brambles

that tear at our skin and beliefs

til we are left scarred and scabbed

and in a sudden eternity

we no longer know where we are

who we are

why we love

why we are loved

-we know only doubt and darkness-

what we need to forget is  that the wounds are on our surface

the bruise is skin deep

the scab mere superficial

our strength lies within

it rises from the deep -but only when we let it

encourage it

coax it

if we do we will find

we still love who we love

they love who they have always loved

why they do does not matter as much as THAT they do

and where you are matters not at all -

because you are together

eyes and ears

eyes and ears

are a direct connect to the heart

your heart

to listen and see

to express the inexpressible

to communicate colour mood and touch

nuance,

the DNA of connection

the base elements of a lifelong bond

This is the epic love that envelopes and protects us

this bond is as strong as it can be tenuous

and it has be checked and cherished less it become worn and frayed

for if this bond is lost........

we lose the battle when we lose the connection

we lose the war when we lose perspective,

all is lost when we cannot see across the divide

to lose this battle, to lose this war,

is to lose hope

is to lose love

is to lose what is us

and this is too high a cost for too great a prize

and another

Birthday Girl

It is her day, but like all the rest she does not see it as so.

Mother, Sister, Daughter, Friend, Confidant, Guide, Partner,

These roles do not stop for her - ever.

Not even on this, the 26th of the 10th month,

Her heart, thoughts, and focus is outwards, even on this day when all others become selfish and absorbed by their own gravity.

This is the essence of her beauty

The ability to hold herself to a higher standard and exceed it

To love with compassion and empathy,

To laugh without self consciousness 

to give of herself.

Then there is this boy,

Flawed, but trying to repair his self inflicted holes

He sees the beauty 

He desires it

He wishes to grasp it

But he knows first he must earn it.

So on this day of her birth, 

He puts words to paper to show her eyes what his see,

His world

His future

His one wish

This Birthday Girl once again gives a gift far greater than she could ever receive

Her heart.

from last year

43
But you look like 33Are wise like 83Have a zest for life like 3
But life is more than a numberLove is more than an emotionMarriage is more than a relationshipAnd you are more than all of these things
You are more than words can captureTho' it never stops me from trying!Because its all I can offer my beautiful bride,My museMy heartMy worldMy girl
So on this day of your birthI wish to express my loveMy emotionDevotionAnd sheer awe
At having been lucky enoughTo have become a part of your lifeI will live to the end of my days  And never be so lucky again
Happy birthday babeI love you