unsure but sure

a former, more melodramatic and immature side of me used to use such tools as this to rant and carry on inappropriately, somethign i have put behind me.

   i have checked my ego at the door, and am now realizing i cannot help myself, well myself - so i have turner to support groups, family and professionals to help me.   some in my life may not see the change as it is not a switch to be turned and i still occasionally make mistakes, bbut - and this is the hard part - when i make such a mistake, change it - and dont make it again.

    see the world for what it is, look at what you offer, not what you will be given, and leave this world having given more than you take.    it is how i live now, and how i strive to live in the future as well.  
      i have asked for support, but now i will settle for guidance and direction - tho i shall not demand, expect or require it-
only use it when provided.



i do not know if this will work - or if it will be an answer, but it is the best i can do now for the people unfortunate enough to be in my life

a new year

a new beginning-

it is time to take pause, and look back in order to look forward 

to make the mistakes of the past a thing of the past

to show you the passion that has always been there

in forms and ways that have never been

pure and distilled to its essence

to get back to who and what we are

we are two who desire to be one

joined

melded

in peace

in 2015 the love will grow - we will grow
we will shed the baggage
be the purest of ourselves
no filters
no boxes
us
us
us




where we will find and KEEP
the joy that is a love and passion for the ages